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28 October 2012 @ 04:45 am
I'm happy for Niall but Namy just kills me. The worst part is that she's a completely normal uni student from Ireland and has poor college student problems and she's just so normal. And we have the same hair and we both wear tons of eyeliner and I just.. Ahh I haven't had a sinking feeling like this in my stomach since Chris got a girlfriend. What is wrong with me? Niall and I do not even know each other. Well, I sort of know everything there is to know about him but wahhh. eughhhh I can feel the five stages of grief coming on. I think I'm still in denial but soon I will be full-fledged angry that I didn't meet Niall sooner or something, and angry that if I win a Go1Den Ticket Niall will not be single (and yet Harold will be hopefully) then bargaining, I guess that's what the Harry aside was. If I can't have Niall then I can have Harry and Liam is single and he has a tumblr... Zayn cheats, right? But I love Perrie. Depression, I will realize it's all just hopeless and cry while looking at all 5,000+ saved pictures of the boys, and then acceptance when I will finally ship Namy as strongly as I ship Elounor. Life would be so much easier if I were the middle child of the Horan family. Can I just go party with Ruth Payne now?
17 August 2012 @ 03:07 am
religious people are pissing me off tonight. someone particularly intelligent that i'm too lazy to look up said something to the effect of religious people cheapen the wonder of life and the universe by chalking it up to creationism. i agree. also, why is it that all classic argument strategies go out the window when discussing religion. do people not understand that "it says so in the bible" or "god made it that way" are not arguments? i love my roommates but living with two devout catholics is taxing on this little atheist. i find myself reblogging lots of offensive catholic themed porn on tumblr. it's so difficult to have a discussion about women's rights with my roommate. i knew catholics didn't like abortion but when i presented it to her from the female point of view, that criminalizing abortion takes away a right from half of the population even if they choose not to exercise it, she said the rights of the unborn infant matter more. if a zygote's rights matter more than mine then how come whites' rights don't matter more than blacks'? i guess the church isn't stranger to withholding rights, when will my babies the homosexuals finally be treated equally? i wish religion never came to be, can you imagine?
05 April 2012 @ 01:07 am
1: What eye color do you find sexiest?

2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha?

3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be?
I don't think I would want a sharpie tattoo it would just stain my clothes.

4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it?
Big, I like it

5: Your favorite adult as a child? (and not your parents, if they were your favorite)
My Uncle Frank

6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now?
Mango a go go all fruitttt

7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years?
falling on my face in sixth grade

8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years?
one time I pronounced subtle with the 'b' I knew how to say it I was just thinking about other things and I slipped up lol

9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years?
I do not know

10: Pirates or ninjas? Why?
neither really but I like pirate clothes better

11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground?

12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set?
yes and yes

13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get?

14: What's your most favorite part of your body?
my lips, my breasts, my feet

15: What's your most favorite part of your personality?
omg idk

16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares?

17: Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through?
i've never watched it at all

18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk?
i've never watched any major sporting event

19: What's the most delicious food you've ever eaten in your life?

20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with?
non-dairy olive oil spread and thats pretty much what i grew up with

21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?)
ew almond milk

22: Which continents have you been on?
north and south america

23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories?
a little bit, no

24: Backpacks or satchels?

25: Would you wear a rainbow jacket? A neon yellow sweater? Checkered pants?
yes, yes, yes

26: What was your favorite cartoon growing up?
soo many, Hey Arnold, Rugrats, Rocko's Modern Life

27: If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why?
i don't really know i suppose the pig might be nice because it might be able to come in the house but cows are furrier. either one would be cool

28: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be?

29: Longest plane ride you've ever been on?
13 hrs or summat

30: The latest you've ever slept?
don't even ask this question, i have no sleep schedule whatsoever

31: Would you buy a sweater covered in kitten pictures? Would you wear it if someone gave it you for free?

32: Do you pick at scabs?
yes like no other it's a terrible habit

33: Favorite kind of bean? Kidney? Black? Pinto?
pinto, black

34: How far can you throw a baseball?
not far like a few yards probably haha

35: If you had to move to another country, where would you move?

36: Have you ever eaten Ethiopian food? Vietnamese? Korean? Nepalese? How was it?
vietnamese and americanized korean, pretty good, idk its just food

37: Small, liberal arts school or public university? Why?
public because cheap and awesome

38: A relationship with love or one with sex?
both duh but i think i like sex better

39: Do you eat enough vegetables?
fuck yes

40: Do you like horror movies? How about thrillers?
if jensen ackles/jared padalecki are in them then yes

41: Would you scratch a crotch itch in public?
probably, who fucking cares

42: Do you swear in front of your parents?

43: Coolest thing you've ever been for Halloween?
twiggy, a bat, vampires

44: If you could change your natural hair color, would you? To what?
no but black

45: Do you want to get married? Have kids?
yes, one

46: Do you use a reusable water bottle? If not, you should.
i do

47: City or nature person?

48: Have you ever used something other than "makeup" as makeup? (Like paint? Markers?)

49: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you're a guy?

50: Post 5 awesome things about yourself. BRAG AWAY!
i have 10 piercings
i have an iphone hahahhahaa
fuck you thats it
12 March 2012 @ 06:23 am
I just finished season five of Supernatural. I feel like I got the wind knocked out of me. Don't hate, I just have a lot of feels about the Winchesters. Dean& Sam/Lucifer& Bobby& Castiel& Adam/Michael& John& Gabriel. Anyway, that's about it. I just wanted to record these feelings for posterity.
24 January 2012 @ 07:21 am
seriously? deleting me on facebook was taking it kind of far, but at least it means you still care.
24 January 2012 @ 12:14 am
1: My top 10 favourite bands.
Sum 41
Blink 182
The Sounds
The Beatles
The Everly Brothers
The Vandals
The 69 Eyes
The Lonely Island

2: My top 10 favourite albums.
Another Side of Bob Dylan
Dying to Say This to You
All Killer No Filler
Killing Bono Soundtrack
Blonde on Blonde
Hitler Bad Vandals Good
Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights
War on Errorism
Take Off Your Pants and Jacket

3: My top 10 favourite songs.
I Shall Be Free
Where We Want To Be
Some Kind Of Loving
Salt In Our Wounds
Fat Lip
Two Jealous Agains
All I Really Want To Do
Blowin' In The Wind
Times They Are A'Changin
Bob Dylan's Dream

4: Top 10 most attractive musicians in my opinion (dead or alive).
Bob Dylan
Ben Barnes
Tom DeLonge
Ville Valo
Jay Brannan
Slim Twig
Lance Bass
Iwan Rheon
Mac Miller
John Mayer

5: Do I listen to mp3s/cds/cassettes/vinyls.
not cassettes unless I'm listening to old tape tests of mine

6: Most overrated bands.
most of the new stuff people like now is overrated

7: Most underrated bands.
Shook Up! haha, and the McCormick Brothers

8: A guilty pleasure.
Lady Gaga, Ke$ha, The Millionaires, Uffie, Myah Marie

9: The first band I really liked.

10: The first album I bought with my own money.
I don't fucking remember

11: What bands my parents got me into.
The Beatles, The Everly Brothers, Jimi Hendrix

12: Bands I have seen live.
Sum 41, Blink 182, The Everly Brothers, Nsync, HIM, The 69 Eyes, The Vandals, NoFX, No Doubt, Cradle of Filth, Yellowcard, Coheed and Cambria, Brand New, My Chemical Romance, Green Day, Fall Out Boy, Hawthorne Heights, Authority Zero, Pennywise, Hot Action Cop, Flogging Molly, I can't remember any more

13: Bands I want to see live.
Bob Dylan, The Millionaires, The Beatles, Jimi Hendrix

14: My favourite film soundtrack.
Killing Bono, The Runaways, Twilight

15: What song am I listening to right now.
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - U2

16: Last album I bought.

17: A song I dislike from my favourite band.

18: A band I used to love but now hate.

19: Least favourite bands.

20: An unpopular opinion about music.
I dk
23 January 2012 @ 09:14 pm
I should be doing homework but I'm bored

1. Your boyfriend/girlfriend leaves you for their ex, what do you do?
I don't have one so...

2. Who's the last person you had a sleepover with?

3. Last person you held hands with?
I'm not much of a hand holder

4. The tenth person in your phonebook wants to hook up, you do what?
haha it's Christopher, definitely

5. Are you ashamed of your past?

8. Last thing that really pissed you off?
hacker fucking with blackboard

9. Who was the last person you yelled at?
don't remember

10. Who were you with Saturday night?
no one, everyone was gone :(

12. Do you ride roller coasters?
just the ones at Disneyland

13. What woke you up this morning?
having enough sleep

14. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?

15. Would you date the person who last posted this?
i dk

17. Do you regret anything you have done?

18. Do you trust people?

19. What were you doing at midnight saturday night?
watching Bigga Than Ben

20. Have you ever cried from being so mad?

21. Do you like messages or comments better?

22. Whats your sign?

23. Who did you go to the mall with last?
My mom, my aunt, my cousin, and her daughter

24. Are you separated from any of your parents?

29. Do you have any enemies?

30. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
grad school

31. What does your 5th text message in the inbox say?
Does that work for you?

34. What is the longest you have gone without checking your Myspace?
over a year

35. Miss someone?

38. What do you like to do when you're in a car?
drive and listen to music

41. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
depends on who i'm going out with

42. What are you doing tonight?

43. Where's the closest hoodie to you right now?
in my roommate's room, I don't own one

44. What place do you think has the Best French Fries?
i don't care

45. What do you want right now?
a salad

47. Who did you last get in an argument with?
no one

49. What's bothering you at the moment?
my eye

51. You just won the lottery, what do you do?
buy things

53. Are any of your friends cheerleaders?

54. What was the last thing you burnt?
my blueberry muffin candle

55. Have you ever liked someone for their looks alone?

56. Who was the last person you texted?

57. Who's the last person to add you to MySpace?
i don't know

59. Would you ever dye your hair red?

60. What career would you wish to be in?
DVM, MD, professor, Lab grunt

62. What did you wear today?
yoga pants and my shirt with yellow pigs

63. When were you last on your phone?
about an hour ago

64. What shoes did you wear today?

65. If you could trade spots with one person for one day, who?
Emma Watson

66. Why?
do you have to ask?

67. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
6 boyfriends 1 girlfriend

68. Longest relationship?
about 4 years

69. Favorite color?
15 January 2012 @ 07:35 pm
1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Dysentery Gary, Blink 182
I Know A Guy..., Blink 182
The Emperor Arrives, John Williams
While My Guitar Gently Weeps, The Beatles
Oh, Sister, Bob Dylan
On My Own, Ben Barnes and Robert Sheehan

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Robert Sheehan

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
from him - Wormtail had escaped before they could take him to

4) What do you think about most?
Past relationship regrets

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
wow thank you that was fast

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
Usually without

7) What's your strangest talent?
twisting my arm all the way around

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
Girls are misunderstood. Boys are unfair.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
I usually play air violin for some reason

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
I used to have a lot but I take drugs for that now.

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

13) What's your religion?

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
sitting still watching something

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
probably The Beatles

17) What was the last lie you told?
so many...can't remember

18) Do you believe in karma?

19) What does your URL mean?
it's my name

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
love; willpower

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
Robert Sheehan

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

23) How do you vent your anger?

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
cat art

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
vacuums/blenders; meows

28) What's your biggest "what if"?
what if I was still with Christopher

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
ghosts no aliens yes

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
laptop screen, Magdelyn

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
dinner my dad is cooking

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
a small family farm where animals were underfed and in horrible conditions

33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
of all time: Bob Dylan now: Iwan Rheon

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
reproduction to create a stronger species

36) Define Art.
anything people like to look at, hear, smell, taste, or feel

37) Do you believe in luck?

38) What's the weather like right now?

39) What time is it?

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
yes, no

41) What was the last book you read?
Breaking Dawn

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?

43) Do you have any nicknames?
mo mo

44) What was the last movie you saw?
Killing Bono

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
none, really

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?

48) What's your sexual orientation?
mostly straight

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?

50) Do you believe in magic?

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
I try not to

52) What is your astrological sign?

53) Do you save money or spend it?
both :/

54) What's the last thing you purchased?

55) Love or lust?

56) In a relationship?

57) How many relationships have you had?
three that I think matter

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

59) Where were you yesterday?

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yes, my bean bag chair

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
no, I never wear socks

62) What's your favorite animal?

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
I don't have one

64) Where is your best friend?
in Tempe, in Gilbert

65) Spit or swallow?(;

66) What is your heritage?
mostly German, 1/8 Seneca, Irish, English, French, Swedish, Spanish, Basque

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
watching Killing Bono

68) What do you think is Satan's last name?

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
I hope so

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Save the dog, always, no matter what

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
I would tell a few people but I wouldn't want to burden anyone else so probably just my parents so they can prepare. I would probably do a lot of drugs and maybe kill some people. I don't think I would be afraid.

73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Echoes, The Rapture

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

77) How can I win your heart?
you can't, it's otherwise engaged

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
to become a vegetarian/vegan

80) What size shoes do you where?
5 ish

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
She loved cats, She loved every kind of cat

82) What is your favorite word?

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

84) What is a saying you say a lot?
I don't think I have one

85) What's the last song you listened to?
On My Own, from Killing Bono

86) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?

87) What is your current desktop picture?
Bob Dylan

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
a name I'd rather not say

89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
I can't think of any

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
call an archaeologist

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Immortality a la Nathan Young

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
seeing Christopher after I ran away

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
events surrounding my breakup with Christopher

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
I'd take Justin Bieber's virginity

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?

98) Ever been on a plane?

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
I'm sorry, I fucked up, forgive me and take me back, I love you

100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.
skins-world, girlsgotafacelikemurder, fuckyeahtherobertsheehan, fuckyeahrobnben, mrsexysheehan
12 January 2012 @ 01:52 am
Thank you, friends.
10 January 2012 @ 10:26 pm
I can't breathe. I brought this upon myself. I know dying would be easier than this.